Mertesacker is to retire on the finish of the season and change into Arsenal’s new academy supervisor.
But the German has published how he is each bodily and mentally on the finish of his profession already.
Mertesacker says he can not naked the power of taking part in anymore and feels bodily unwell before every match he performs.
He published he then “chokes so violently until my eyes water”.
“Everyone says I must benefit from the remaining yr, to play up to imaginable and take the whole thing in,” Mertesacker instructed Spiegel.
“But I might moderately take a seat at the bench and even higher within the stands, after which, for the primary time in my lifestyles, elderly greater than 30, I can be happy.
“Some days you realise the whole thing is a burden, each bodily and mentally however it’s a must to ship no doubt.
“The power could be very intense. I all the time have this horror tale in my head, to make a screw up and be accountable for a conceded function.
“If the lovers have fun it’s nice, it’s implausible. But if they’re booing you, I all the time really feel very ashamed.
“In the moments before a sport begins, my abdomen turns round as though I needed to vomit.
“Then I’ve to choke so violently till my eyes water.”
Mertesacker endured by means of pronouncing he has considered retiring a number of instances prior to now.
“At instances I actually used to be carried out,” the Arsenal guy added.
“My frame used to be no longer able for any longer efforts. And if I could not play anymore, I used to be injured, it all the time used to be like that.
“I believe, that a large number of returning accidents have psychologically causes. That the frame tries to provide your soul some leisure.”